Perrot didn't suffocate like her sisters. She didn't have a lung infection. She died calmly. One of the most peaceful deaths any of my pets had. I'm glad about that. She was brave and lovely. And she loved to play. Beautiful Perrot. She died last night, jan. 31st around 10:40. I wasn't with her, but my dad was. she was the last of my little rats so this is the last obituary in my blog. and also the last of my blog.

I loved my little girls since I met them, and I'll love them forever.

2:30 am octobre 25th Olly died on her birthday. She is two and she's with Ebby. Perrot is playing on the couch.

My little girl Ebby passed away on monday oct. 2nd 2006. Im going to write about it here because I would like a little record of it I guess and i have a hard time saying what I feel about it. PLus i dont think anyone reads this anymore:)

Little ebby was born on Octobre 25th 2004. SHe is a darling, sweet kind demanding rattie, or was I guess. The thing is, I can't think about my life lately without thinking about her. What I think is hard for most people to understand is that i will keep walking and laughing and whatever but there's this longning that doesn't go away. Just this intense unrational feeling of I want to see my little girl again, I want her back. Really it's how I would suppose loosing any loved one feels like, just normaly people don't associate pets with family. They are my family, moreso in some ways than my real family. It's like we have our own family me and the three girls. I raised them up, feed them housed them cared for them when they were sick wich unfortunately was fairly often, watched them grow old. I think of holding her paw often, it's something Ebby did more then the other girls. She'd just put her little paw on one of my finger tips and hold me there. She was very forceful always demanded what she wanted. I burried her beside my cabin at my lot. As morbid as it sounds, I made sure there would be room for her sisters as well. So they would be together. Well that is all.

Hmmm what to write

well i guesss i am attempting this blog magiger ONE MORE TIME. i never really write in it, i loose interest easily. plus.. my spelling and grammar are TERRIBLE. i am very cold right now, probably from busing home from Jo's 18th birthday super. unfortuanately i couldnt go out drinking with them because i am underage still.. and have no fake ID. so what have i been up to? well my school started again today and i found odly enough that the familiarity of it was kinda comforting. i think i might have started to rot in my own mind sitting at home talking to the rats and sewing in the dark basement. or locking myself in my room and playing guitar for hours.. of course i exagerate a little, but not alot. my time at home has been spent very hermitishly, but i did go out! i didint give into my secret hermit self. ok speaking of sewing... i must describe the AMAZING HAUL OF FABRIC, me and maya got at bouclairs the other day. why? becasue it excites me. i bought a huge stack of fabric for 16$ we got it all off racks of 4.44$ or 2.22$ a meter, but they were also 70% off! so today i wore one semi sweeteresk shirt that i made that is only moderately gimpy, looked very similar to zahra's expensive store bought shirt and literally cost me under 2$ of fabric to make. plus its soft. thats my favorite part. i also got STRAWBERRY fabric, very very cool. ok on to guitar, well i have been very frustrated. i know what i want to do with it but i CANT and therefore i cant write a new song which i feel very much the need to do. on the bright side i have almost enough songs of mine that i like to put on a cd, and more then enough to put on a cd with sarah my twang twang buddy. which means that eventually hopefully sooner then later i will have 2 CDS!! i do not promise you will like them, or that they are good for that matter, but i'll be proud of them hehe!!

so this is my blog for now becasue i dont feel quite in the mood to write about anything more significant then fabric and music.
hope you enjoy viki! :P

Lesson of the day

just becuase two alcohols are the same color doesnt mean they are ok to mix. that and apple picking is dangerous
thank you zahra!

soccer in the rain

today i played soccer n the rain with a bunch of my friends, it was great. i missed soccer, i jsut hate playing it competitively , i jsut like being stupid and having fun. i was SOO soaked wehn i came home adn i took a bath and feel sooo relaxed. i ahd yoga yesterday to so my muscles are all like WHAT THE FUCK?! but it feels good. needless to say i am in a much better mood then yesterday, except i dont feel comeplelty right yet, but whatever.

a few days ago a got my book in teh mail for my basic rehabilitation trainning in toronto. its soooo cool, it teaches you abovut these medacines and symptoms, was of restraining animals bandaging tehm etc. it really puts all the crap im learning at school in perspective since i can see easier how all that stuff links back to taking care of animals. aanywyas that is all i suppose.

can i jsut stay home tomorow?